UGH!

Let me tell you about my weekend…

Sunday, April 20th, 2014 | blah blah blah, Friday Night Knitting, UGH! | 2 Comments

Usually I don’t get into anything too serious here on the blog. I’m not exactly one who likes to talk about my feelings and such, but this time I figured I would make an exception.

Over the past few years, I have gone though quite a lot of personal stuff that has tested me in many ways. From my previous job, over a year of dealing with unemployment, to issues with people that I once considered dear friends, it was a lot to go through. For the most part, I dealt with it silently.

Last year, I found a job. I did it on my own without calling in any favors to friends, which can be a difficult thing in the industry I work in. I did it because I felt incredibly undeserving of anyone’s help and because I felt I had a lot to prove.

My current job is really great. It’s a wonderful place to work and I have learned so much in the past 7 months. The people I work with are quirky and creative and genuine. I really lucked out.

Which brings me to last Thursday…

I was at work and having a really great day. I was planning on walking home to have lunch alone, but decided to walk to lunch with my coworkers. That afternoon, I was chatting with a colleague about how I was feeling to be there and how I hoped that after our project was done, I could be moved onto something new so I could stay. She complimented me on my work…and for the first time in a really long time, I felt I was exactly where I needed to be. I thought about hopping on twitter and tweeting from the rooftops how awesome everything was…but I’ve been a quiet and contemplative person these days, so I decided that I would enjoy the moment myself.

I left work and went to pick up my kids. We all talked about our day and everything was pretty normal…until we got home.

We came upstairs to our place and I went to stick the key in the door when I noticed that something didn’t seem right. Did I not lock the door that morning? I wasn’t sure (despite knowing that I usually check it multiple times). I opened the door and walked in. I dropped my bag in the middle of the living room floor, right in front of the entrance to our hallway. The kids were standing there with me, when my daughter looked down the hallway and noticed something.

“Mommy, I think someone is in the house.”

This is pretty much where everything becomes a blur. It’s the only reason I have for not thinking straight and doing what I should have done first… which was to get us the hell out right then and there.

I know there was a call to 911, and my saying I wasn’t sure if someone was still there. There was me, getting the kids from the corner of the dining room, which was where they thought to hide for safety, to the hallway. At one point, I dug for my pepper spray and walked further in because I just wasn’t sure if I had left the lights on or the armoire, where I keep my stash, open. As soon as I noticed something was missing, I realized it was all very real.

We banged on neighbors doors and the lady that lives across the hall came out and tried calming down the kids with muffins. Finally, my brother-in-law came out and took the kids into his place while I waited for my husband and the police to arrive.

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Forensics lesson…

They showed up, they walked through, we looked around to see what was missing. They were in my stash, but it doesn’t look like they were interested in any of my yarn or fiber. The forensics person showed up to take fingerprints. I think it all took a few hours. The entire time I felt sick. Who the hell would do this? I went from disbelief, to fear, to anger and back.

Let me give you the bright side of the story…

First and foremost, we are safe. I had been coming home for lunch during the week, and had decided not to that day. Who knows what would have happened if I had come home and found someone in our place?

They didn’t take much that couldn’t be replaced. It’s just stuff.

So, while I spent all day Friday making phone calls, I also received many messages from friends checking to make sure that we were okay. I even heard from people I haven’t talked to in a very long time. I am touched and incredibly grateful.

I had Friday Night Knitting at my place. I didn’t feel comfortable going out and my friends coming over was a really good distraction. I got a lot of knitting done, but I have a lot more left to go.

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38″…25″ more to go…

Of course, there is more knitting stuff to share…but this is a long enough post already!

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In need of a crafting intervention…

Tuesday, February 11th, 2014 | blah blah blah, crafts, Miscellaneous, UGH! | No Comments

I have a bit of a problem.

I know I am still in the hell that is Crafty Christmas. No, my gifts aren’t done…and it’s only taking me FOREVER because I am dragging my feet. I love making gifts for my friends, but I am feeling like the stuff I made just isn’t enough…which makes me want to make more…which I have no time for…

But in addition to this, I am having weird crafting feelings. It’s a combination of trying to figure out what knitting projects I want to take to Stitches and the strong desire to try something new. I don’t want to work on any of my current projects, I’d rather rip out old projects and given them new life. That sweater I didn’t finish? Frog it! The coat I knit for my London/Paris trip in 2011 that is too big for me because I got stuck in the rain? Rip it out and make it a smaller size! All of my hand spun yarn? It wants to be hats and cowls and anything that means it is ultimately set free from my stash!

Then there is Pinterest, which makes me feel like I am not quite living up to my fullest potential. It’s like these people are the worst kind of over-achievers. Does that stop me from going on Pinterest and pinning ALL THE THINGS? Of course not.

This past weekend, I was getting ready for the day and having a conversation with my husband. I told him that I had just pinned a boatload of embroidery projects the night before, and that my logical brain was telling me that this is a problem because:

  1. I don’t know how to embroider.
  2. There aren’t enough hours in my lifetime to make all the things I’d like to make.

I explained it to him very clearly and calmly, like I was staging an intervention for myself. How do these people do it? Do they not have kids to take care of? Maybe they are stay-at-home moms with a lot of time on their hands? Maybe they are just over-achievers who swing toward the manic side of the crafterverse? All things I have heard from other people when asking me how I do it.

So, as sad as I am about it. I am not starting anything new. Not until Crafty Christmas is done, anyway.

And let’s just be honest…this is really just me struggling with a little ADD.

Knitting Lunch!

Maribel and I met for Knit Lunch last week! On this particular occasion, it was just the two of us.

Back in the day, when we were working together on that cartoon, we would meet up with a few other folks to crochet during lunch. She loves little amigurumi and doll patterns. She did a fabulous job, but I remember that she had some mishaps because crocheting with black yarn is incredibly difficult.

Now, she is relearning knitting…

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Do you see the problem here?

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I broke it.

Thursday, January 30th, 2014 | blah blah blah, Mishaps, Repair Job, UGH! | No Comments
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My trusty knitting/work bag. Sigh…

So…is it admitting some sort of sewing defeat if I take this bag to have the zipper repaired? I kinda feel like it is.

The short story is that this is my favorite bag. I bought it two years ago at Stitches from a lady who stopped making these bags to pursue making dog beds. I was a dummy and I overpacked it and pulled really hard and broke the zipper right off. I should have to repair this just to teach myself a lesson to not carry so much stuff all the time (as if the knots in my shoulders and neck and a scolding from a chiropractor weren’t enough). The problem is that I have been seriously busy….and when I went to JoAnn’s, I found they don’t carry just the pull. I mean, I know I messed up here, but I don’t need to replace the *whole* zipper.

Right now it is just sitting there….all sad and unused. Ugh.

 

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Forced relaxation…

Monday, January 6th, 2014 | blah blah blah, FO's, hats, Holiday, knitting, stash busting, UGH! | No Comments

Wow, what a hectic year this is shaping up to be! I have been very busy, but it looks like I’m getting a little break coming up soon.

I met up with my knitters on Friday night but I didn’t do any knitting. I think the holidays did me in and, once again, the repetitive motion injury fairy has come to visit. The knitter’s have instructed me to lighten up on the crafting time.

But, how in the world will I survive without my knitting?!? (Insert dramatic flailing here.)

It’s not so bad though. Courtney and I must have been reading each other’s minds because we both think that instead of exchanging Crafty Christmas gifts on Twelfth Night (which was…um…yesterday), that we should exchange them at Stitches West next month! That way we are all together and hopefully that gives everyone enough time to get their projects done.

I’m not worried. I already made the prediction that I would be done first, despite my splint.

While I wait to get back to crafting, presents are starting to be delivered to relatives back home! I haven’t heard from everybody yet, but hopefully I will soon. There is a big snowstorm happening in the midwest right now and my packages are being delivered to some of those areas hit hard by snow and ice. Keep your fingers crossed!

My folks are happy that they are here in Cali where it a lovely 70+ degrees and they have been taunting the folks back home in Michigan with pictures of the two of them wearing shorts and sandals. It means that my Mom hasn’t had the opportunity to wear the hat I knit her for Christmas.

Oh well, maybe she can get some use out of it when she gets home in March.

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Nicole by Grace Akhrem

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Stay on Target!

Saturday, December 21st, 2013 | blah blah blah, Insanity Blanket, knitting, UFO's, UGH!, WIP, yarn | No Comments

So, while looking for fun handspun scraps to crochet ornaments this year, I opened the “toy” box to find this…

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Hey! In here! When can I come out?

Oh hi, Insanity Blanket! As much as I would like to work on you right now, I have Christmas crafts to finish. Sometime soon, okay?

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No rest for the crafter…

I know it has been a while since my last post. Boy, have I been crazy busy. Now that I have less time to work on projects, I am trying to jam every available second into getting things done…on top of the general care and feeding of the twins…oh, and 3rd grade math (ugh).

It seems like a lot of the projects I need to get done are not necessarily knitting related. I guess my crafting sort of happens in waves. A wave of knitting…a wave of spinning…and currently, a wave of sewing.

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Lil’ girls favorite skinny jeans.

My kids seem to wreck stuff at record speed. Clothing, shoes, anything really.

My daughter was so upset that she ripped a hole in her favorite pair of skinny jeans. The hole was in a strange place up high on her pant leg and there was no way that little 8 year old was going to be sporting those jeans to school anymore. She was so sad…but it wasn’t anything a little star fabric from my friend David and a little embroidery thread couldn’t fix!

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Fixing Lil’ guys backpack.

Then there is my son…who couldn’t explain to me why, after one month of school, his TMNT backpack had a gaping hole in the bottom. Really? Like, what the hell? I frankenstein’d that bad boy back together.

There is other mending that needs to be done, but I have to do this stuff in baby steps. Hand sewing takes time!

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Measuring hands.

Then there is my actual sewing project…clothing for Gray (yeah, remember him?). After my whole process of agonizing over how not to mess it up, I went forward with my actual plan (which worked of course, I don’t know why I torture myself). Those sleeves were a total pain, but Gray’s hands fit through them, so I am happy about that. I also took a little time to draw up rough pattern, so as to make my life a little easier should I need to do this again.

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Seaming a little shirt. I tried desperately not to sew it to itself.

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Labor Day Frogging

Hello again!

I took a little vacay from the blog over the long holiday weekend. Mostly because no one wants to frolic in the wool when it is 100+ degrees out and I’ve never really been one to knit poolside.

This also means that not much knitting gets done. Don’t get me wrong, I did knit. It just means that it is going to LOOK like I didn’t do much. Let me explain.

Sometime Sunday, I sat down and took a long hard look at my project. I fiddled with it, stretched it and tried to get a feeling of what it might look like blocked. I came to the conclusion that I didn’t like it. I wanted it to be a little more open. So I hopped on it and started to frog. I ripped the thing all the way back to the beginning, changed to bigger needles, and started over.

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Trust me when I say, there are more completed rows here than before I frogged it.

I mean, we all could use a “do over” every once I awhile, right? (I’m going to try really hard not to over analyze the fact that I have had quite a few “do overs” recently.)

I think it looks fabulous now though! Starting over gave me the chance to tweak the edges. The pattern called for slipping the first stitch of each row, but I hadn’t done it. Now I am.

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Pretty edges! Oh, and now you can see why I always make a copy of my pattern before I knit. I love making notes and writing all over!

Okay, enough knitting struggles for now…let’s talk about something more successful.

Yesterday was Blanketeers Tuesday! I didn’t work on any of my knitting, but for good reason…I was teaching! My friend Jessie had said she wanted to learn to knit, so I cast on for her and taught her the knit stitch. It wasn’t much work for me because she picked it up quickly and started flying through her stitches. I am hoping that next Tuesday I can show her purling (and maybe snap a picture or two so I can show you her progress). I am super proud of her!

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The care and feeding of the Creative Blahs

Wednesday, August 28th, 2013 | blah blah blah, UFO's, UGH!, WIP | No Comments

You guys, I’m lazy.

Have you ever had those days where you look at the clock as it turns to “lunchtime” only to come to the realization you wasted the entire morning watching funny Internet videos in your underpants because you just can’t be bothered to get up and actually get the yoga pants lying on the floor?

Yeah…that.

I feel like I need to announce to the Universe that I am feeling seriously guilty about the situation above. I try and tell myself “This is normal and everyone goes through it” or “If you didn’t feel guilty about it, you’d have a REAL problem.” It doesn’t seem to make me feel any better though. I know deep down that you should never force it. When you force it, things go awry.

So I try to never force things. I honestly believe that everything you need comes in time. It doesn’t mean it’s any less frustrating though.

That being said…here is where, instead of beating myself up for what I am considering some serious creative blockage/laziness/ennui, I am putting it out there and announcing it to all of you. You can try and give me a kick in the rear, judge me, feel empathy, whatever you wish. I welcome it all.

But, let’s look at the positive, shall we? Yes, I did in fact, waste my entire morning…but I did do a few things today…and better to do something than nothing at all. Am I right?

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Even my lunch lacks creativity. I did eat though.

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I sent a friend info on what yarn and needles she needs to pick up so I can help her learn to knit!

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I took out my current WIP and stared at it. Maybe once I’m done blogging, I may even knit a few rows.

I will spend the rest of my day working on not being so hard on myself. Baby steps.

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Clearly this was unplanned…

Thursday, August 15th, 2013 | blah blah blah, Miscellaneous, shawl, UFO's, UGH!, Video Blog | No Comments

I hadn’t really thought I would do a video blog today…but I was here…and bored.

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